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Post by Deleted on Jul 22, 2010 22:23:47 GMT -5
These are notes jotted down by Caretaker Tobias Williams in a small notebook kept in his back pocket. Monday. Started work early, before the sun. First job, vomit. Again. Wonder who keeps throwing up? Not that random child going on about the milk. Not all the time. Made me not want breakfast and I had wanted breakfast.
Noonish. Dusted relics. Smoking now. Coffee now. Shouldn’t have signed up for a fight I know that. Shit…more vomit.
Later. Ate with Anna-Marie. Trying to convince me to invest in more…interesting shoes. She smells like lemon grass. That’s new. Usually smells like honey melon. Why the change? Hope it’s not a boy. I’ll kill him. Figuratively.
Tuesday. Had to go to town and buy lady things for Anna-Marie. And chocolate. Not really fair as she never gets me hamburgers or a fat chicken when I get moody.
Woke up late today. Had trouble sleeping. Means change will be worse. Had to fix leaky S-bend on 5th floor. Smelt awful.
After Noon. Went to dining hall. Saw Caroline again. Damn the things I could do to her. I’m thinking tossing up that ass like a salad….will blame that on being so close to a shift.
Wednesday. Think I’ll go to church today. Much to think about. Shouldn’t have agreed to the fight/charity event. Smells like rain. Think I’ll eat first.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 8, 2011 14:43:14 GMT -5
Monday Has it really been more than a year? I can’t Adam and Eve it. It’s been surreal without question. I had spent all this time in Co. Atrim at the parish in Ballycastle. I boarded the ship to take me back to Foresta only this morning and already I miss the ruin castles. I miss the beach, not that I saw it much being at my father’s bedside.
My father…it’s so strange to think of him that way. He is father to many but I’m the only one that shares his blood and that is a dirty secret thing. Anna-Marie already gave me an earful when I called to tell her I was coming back. It’s just a tender situation.
Of course mum came up to bring food and make sure he was comfortable. Strange seeing the love she still has for him. Unlucky really, falling in love with a Priest. She’s prove though, that you can love two people equally…maybe some people are just better at it than others.
Thought of writing Caroline, but the first three weeks were turmoil. Didn’t even tell my boss I had run off until a week later. And by that point, I was sure she didn’t want to hear my excuses. Caroline not my boss. Anyway. Three days out to see and then I’m back at Foresta.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 29, 2011 20:34:45 GMT -5
Monday
Just moved into an apartment with Jaime. It’s as good as anything, but I need a place of my own. I’ve been spending most of my time in my room and keeping odd hours. I probably should be more sociable. He is letting me stay here after all.
Tuesday
Vomit in the men’s room on the 3rd floor. Took lunch with Anna-Marie. She has high hopes for me and Caroline, but then she’s always been a romantic. Woke up this morning to just walk for an hour. It helped hold off my first cigarette of the day. Turns out I smoke less the longer I wait to light up. That’s good.
Friday
I’ve been keeping a low profile. Just doing my work and going back to Jaime’s place to sleep. Should start thinking about it as my home too, as I’m paying the bills. Still, it feels like I’m mooching. I can understand him not wanting to get involved, but Caroline’s been giving me the cold shoulder. Seems like she’d be more interested in forgiving me if I had a little help.
Saturday
Went into town today. Used the internet café to talk to Amelia. She’s got a project in mathematics. Take a double digit number and shape it into something else. Also, she’s got a bit of a book report but didn’t know which one to read. Animal Farm is good but I don’t think it’s good for fifth graders, bit beyond their reach. Maybe her teacher can get the point across. Sam and I had a little chat too. It’s hard to talk to her sometimes. We worked out a payment plan for child support that’ll be easier on me. Nice of her, in her big house and her private practice… Anyway, planning on having Amelia for a visit during one of the long weekends.
Monday
Been smoking less, eating more. Started running to balance it out. My lungs are wrecked though and I can’t run very far. Embarrassing that is. Had to redo the piping in the south wing, which meant redoing the grout work too. Don’t mind though. Something to do anyway.
Thursday
Anna-Marie forced me to go shopping with her today. Said I needed new pants. Suppose she’s right. I had to stop wearing a belt. She tells me I wear sized that children with really long legs would wear. But, good for me, I’ve graduated to middle grade. I prefer to say that I have a Robert Plant waistline, but don’t tell that to the wide-eyed gum popping store clerks. Sent flowers to Caroline on Tuesday and a box of chocolates. Don’t know what she thought. Hope it went well.
Saturday
Had to re-carpet student lounge. Pretty sure one of the gay kids was eying me. Just as well, it’s the only appreciation I’ve been getting lately. I left another box of candy for her on her desk. I don’t know what else to do. Mother of God…I’m beating myself over this, but I can’t just let this go. I feel that I want to be with her, but I can’t continue to be snappy.
Should probably bring groceries home tonight. Still haven’t been social. Maybe I’ll cook dinner or something.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 14, 2011 23:07:31 GMT -5
Monday
Mary Mother of God, my legs are killing me. I upped the weights yesterday in my new work out routine and my ass...Jesus my ass!
I'm not happy about Caroline going to a location with rioters but I figure she's safe. Still...what with her being pregnant and all. I've been thinking, we haven't really had a proper date or anything and I'm to be a father again. I don't think how to she knows I have a child by another woman. But I don't know go about it. It seems with Caroline I've skipped on the easy stuff. I'm having a baby with her and I don't know what her favourite colour is.
Right. I'm going to ask her on a proper date the moment she comes back and get to know all that nonsense stuff. Damn. I haven't been on a date in thirteen years.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 2, 2012 21:59:25 GMT -5
Thursday A baby. Scratch that. Two of them and growing fast. Amelia was a normal birth. Standard. 9mth. Possibly this case is because Caroline is also genetically mutated. God I really hope they don't have my nose. Amelia has mine. Slightly smaller, but I hope her face grows into it.
Meanwhile that shite agent is sulking around the grounds. Bothers me. Makes my blood pressure rise. I shouldn't let my anger escape me like it has been, especially with kids on the way. I should probably look into anger management courses.
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